Thursday, October 29, 2009


YAY!!! She FINALLY showed!!
I have been soooo happy all day today that she showed... now I can move on!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


thats a word my dad used alllll the time when we asked him a question and the answer wasn't just "no" it was "NOOOOO" ha ha! anyway the neg. is because I took a PG test and it was BFN! which is GREAT... but AF really needs to come on it's been 5 weeks now.. I mean COME ON!! HA HA! I have NEVER been so desperate for her IN MY LIFE!

Ohhh Me!

Have a Great week


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

La La Land

Thats just where I'm at these days! I'm soo wishing AF would show already. It's been almost 5 weeks since the MC, and no sign of her showing yet. I'm not sure how much longer I can wait before I take a test just to make sure I'm not PG! The good thing is, I know what my hCG levels were last and what day that was on. (But lets not get our hopes up here) especially since I've been not feeling very well the last couple of days.
Somebody needs to push me in gear, so I can get my big ole' behind back on the exercise wagon. I CAN NOT get motivated and its KILLING me! I've never been so disappointed in myself. EVER!!
Ok.. enough venting for now! Maybe I can go to sleep.. and not have a night full of dreams like I been doing for the last week or so! UGH!!
anyone know how long a "normal cycle" is after a MC? I could use some help on this!

Have a GREAT week!

Monday, October 19, 2009


or very close!

My counts were done today and they are at 3! FINALLY!! I am so super excited, nooooow if AF would just show we can get the show on the road again!

Ladies, THANKS to alllll of you for your email and suport, without my friends and family I would have been a TOTAL basketcase! SERIOUSLY!!

Mucho love,

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


I am sooo very impatient with the TTC, and anyone that "knows" me, KNOWS i'm sooo very impatient. I went to the dr. on Monday for another bloodwork and my counts are at 7. I asked my nurse what they need to be, and she said below 2. So, i go back Monday and hopefully they will be where they are supposed to be. I also understand that AF may not show until 2 weeks after my number is at the right place. UGH!!

I am also finding myself very frustrated with this fact. I paid $8500 for a surgery, the 1st PG ended in a MC. and i have to use PROTECTION until my cycle returns. I paid MONEY to have to USE protection.. something about that just doesn't sound right.. and it's really getting me down, TERRIBLY. But, hopefully AF will be here before long, and my life can almost return back to normal.(or the life as I know it).

Please keep us in your prayers, as on some days I cry all day, wanting to know WHY and HOW this happened to us. But, I KNOW that God has full control of this, and I'm slowly healing, and giving it to Him.

Hoping my time after my cycle makes another Positive PG test.

Thanks for hearing me vent!
Love ya,

Friday, October 2, 2009

my Dr. office visit

I went to the dr. today, and got all kinds of news.

First of all, we ALL agree the surgery was a success :) ! He was in SHOCK that we got PG the 1st month of trying, and so was I. With that being said. He told me to use protection until after my next cycle. Then he said we can be "active", but not to "actively try" until 3 months, which would be 2 more cycles. That if we got PG before the 3rd month, ok, but Not to really try until that month. So, it'll be all in the "fun" :)

God had/has a plan for me and that baby. I will never know what it is until the day I get to Heaven and see my Father and our baby. I never knew what this pain feels like and it is sooo undescribeable.

At the same time, the Dr. told me to continue on my weight loss goals and challenges. To continue on liveing life as normal.

I just wanted to update everyone. I am doing well considering. I have my moments, but who doesn't and I just let God do what he has planned for me. I truly believe had He not wanted us to have a baby, He wouldn't have provided SOO much for us this far.

Thanks for all your prayers and concerns,

Have a Great week,