I'm so happy I have accomplished so much this week! I have stayed on my caloric ranges and the goals I have alllmost reached them all. I was aiming to try to burn ay least 700 calories a day, well some days are easier than others. With that being said, I returned back to work from my vacation today, so my body was WHOOPED! I did get in my milage though, just wish I could have hit more calories, I am not disappointed though.

Here's my stats:

90 minutes 5.25 miles and 613 calories

I am very happy as I have dropped a pound or two! I will weigh in prolly Sat. morning and give my results then!

Have a Great Day!
Leigh

A NEW DAY

I was sitting watching GAC this morning, and I started thinking about my lil bean. A friend of mine that I went to high school with told me, to pray that the bean prays for me. I never thought of looking at like that, since s/he is in my Father's Arms. Then my sister told me to imagine my neice holding them and singing a lullaby to them. (yes that brought tears to my eyes). The point I am making is this, God didn't give me what He didn't want me to have, SOOO...

A NEW DAY

I decided that I will walk every day, and build myself back up to where I was before the miscarriage. Yes, I said this before, BUT I now have people, FRIENDS, holding me accountable. :)

I do so much better when someone tells me to do something!! I have set a goal to lose 20 pounds before my NEXT vacation, which is July 8. EXACTLY, a year from my surgery last year, and YES it is attainable, and I know it is!

So, I'm going to TRY to post everyday on my blog, my feeling, and what exercises I did, and how long, starting today...


I walked 5 miles, in 90 minutes, and felt really good. may go for another walk later, if I feel up for it.

Thanks to each of you for supporting me!!

Much Love,
Leigh

1 year ago

I was thinking yesterday, about all that has happened to me, since this EXACT day last year. I thought I would share a recollection of thoughts or just remind everyone what has been going on with me. (they are all mostly happy thoughts) Exactly 1 year ago, I went and talked to an RE that a friend of mine used. It was on that day, that I found out that I had high blood pressure. I was told he COULD do the surgery, but the BP had to get down first. I had lost 45 pounds (I THINK) by that point. So, he said the weight wasnt' any problem. We called in mid april to schedule the surgery. The date that was up was July 8. July 8 got here rather quickly, and I had lost a total of 60 pounds the day of the surgery! The surgery went off without a hitch!!! He told us that 1 side was 100% but the other he wasnt' quite so sure about. Well.. he said if we weren't PG within 6 months.. which ironically was my daughters birthday.. to come and see him, and he would do some tests. Well.. on Sept 4, we got a BFP!! We were ELATED!! especially since I thought it would take us a long time to get PG due to our ages, I am 35 and he is 41. I miscarried on Sept 25, 3 weeks after we found out we were PG. My world came crashing down. I became depressed, gained about 25 pounds, all the stuff that depression causes. I cried a LOT, got mad very easily. But, the 1 thing that I do know is... WE CAN GET PREGNANT... it has already happened!!

Onto good news..

I went and talked to my preacher few weeks ago. I told him that I was angry at God for letting me feel the way I was feeling, and I wanted to leave that feeling in the office at church, whenever I left!! I was OVER being depressed, and not the "funny, down to earth" Leigh that every one knew. I can honestly say that I feel SOOOOOO much better now, and my relationship with God is right where it is supposed to be. I no longer track my cycles, or keep up with anything. I circle the day on my calender when AF shows and that is it! I have became less stressed due to this. I have also decided that God will give us our baby whenver it is time for us to have one.

I look back to the last year, and I feel sooo happy to what doors God has opened for me! My family is a very eill knit group. We are very active in church, and the kids know that God answers prayers on His time, Not ours. It just took me a while to accept that, although I preached it to them.

I gave up refined sugar for Lent, and happy to announce that I have almost gotten back to where I was weight wise when I had the miscarriage. I have 9 pounds to go to be at that point! YAY for me!! I am very happy about this, as I really think I made the right decision for Lent, its hard but very well paying off for me!

Thanks to all of you for reading my blogs and leaving me emails and comments, they make my day!
Hope you have a GREAT week!

Leigh

talking to God

Today I went to my church, and had a LOOOONG talk with the preacher. I am tired, VERY TIRED, of being depressed. I was able to talk to him about why I'm so depressed, and I think in the back of my mind, I'm thinking that I will NEVER bear my husband a child, and when I do, I will miscarry it. I was very honest with him. I told him that I am scared to death, and that I love my husband more than words can say, and my fear is not having his baby, and then our marriage fall apart because of this. I also told him that jamie is ALWAYS telling me that, "when God is ready, we will have our own". But that is SOOO hard for me to accept, although it is ABSOULTELY right. Even Bro. Mark said that! I left there feeling very refreshed. And trying my BEST not to even think of it! Now, with that being said, I went ahead and called my OB, just to clear the other part of my mind. I asked her nurse what time frame do I need to start worrying about anything. She said if I wasn't pregnant by the 1st of next year to give them a call then they will do a HSG (make sure my tubes are clear) FANTASTIC .. now.. I should surely be able to rest every night, and KNOW that when its time I will have my hubby's baby.

Now, about lent. I grew up Baptist, so this is a WHOLE new world to me! And, extrememly hard! I gave up refined sugar, which means I can have NATURAL sugar ONLY! Hard, very very Hard. and Yes, I think, I have now showed the world that I am CRAZY!!!! I have lost 10 pounds since Ash Wed.!! I am soo happy about this! I have about 18 more to go to be where I was when I had my surgery last year to have a tubal reversal. I have not started exercising yet, I will start that on the 1st. I have not really wanted anything that I can't have, which is really good! Let me remind you what I CAN'T HAVE!! No ice cream, no sweet tea, no cokes, no cake, no cookies, you get the idea.. LOL!! But, I can have fresh fruit! which is a great thing!!I have found that was eating out of either, boredom, or depression. So, that has COME TO A STOP!! :) thank you very much!!

We have had snow on 3 different occassions since Christmas I believe! It was rather beautiful this morning. It was coming down nice and slow and it was just a beauty beyond words, especially being way down here in the south. (for the record, I am usually at work when this happens, and today I actually got to see it)

Thanks to all of you for being my support through this blog, facebook, and emails, I appreciate it sooo much!

Have a Great Week!!
Leigh

POSITIVE ATTITUDE

I hope everyone has had a fabulous new year thus far!
I have been sitting around thinking, and have decided.. I'm gonna turn this whole TTC thing around! I am gonna focus on losing the weight that I started the blog doing, since this is the 1 thing that I CAN control. I figured if I had a positive attitude, and the weight starts falling off, then that would help in the TTC process, and I would not be stressed at "trying" to have a baby. I know when its right in God's eyes, then I will have 1.. that is something I know.
I officially kicked this off on yesterday, Monday Jan. 25th. (I wrote this down, so when I look back and read my blogs, I can find the date that I started.) I am doing the Biggest Loser on the Wii and walking at LEAST 3 miles a day, and doing wii fit. I am SOOO very determined.

Also, on a very different note. I am asking for prayers for several people that I know. I'm only gonna give 1st names. A girl that I went to school with, tried to commit suicide, somehow.. in the process, the gun moved and shot her jaw.. she has a long recovery ahead, but she is alive. Amy is her name. But the ENTIRE family is needing prayers, as well as the friends, everyone is taking this very very hard.

A friend of mine's father in law is not doing very well. He was diagnosed with cancer and they are not giving him very long to live.

At my work, they laid off 10% of the work force Sunday. I am saddened for the group of ladies that I work(ed) with. I feel so guilty that I still have a job although they do not, and quite a few of these ladies have been working there longer than I have.

Sorry to leave this on such a sad note. But these things are laying on my heart, and prayer is VERY VERY powerful.

Have a Great Week!
Leigh

Terrible Day

I just need a place to vent.. soooo

I caught my 12 year old daughter lieing to me and stealing from me. I feel like I have failed as a mom. I know kids give us trials and tribulations, heck thats why we have them. I come from a "strong" Christian background, and NEVER would have thought I'd be dealing with this. I whip her and tell her its wrong, but is there a way to "show" her its wrong? I am deeply hurt, I have cried all day, and at the same time I want to know why I think that God would give me more children if I can't teach the ones I already have to do the right thing??? I mean SERIOUSLY???

Am I throwing this out of pro-portion? I'd never done this to my parents, and Lord knows never even thought about it.

On a different note, I am still doing great with my workouts every day, YAY! I walk an average of 4 miles a day. although, the scale is not budging an ounce :( it'll get off me when it gets good and ready, i reckon!

Thanks for listening to me vent, and if you have any suggestions, please send em my way.

Have a Great Week,
Leigh

2nd wind

OK.. I am a POOR POOR blogger I have figured out! But..
I have found my 2nd wind to get this diet thing and exercise back under control. Since the Sat. after Thanksgiving I have walked at least 4 miles every day and done a 4 mile bike ride as well! YAY!! I got up this morning and have already walked 4 miles and biked 4, BUT since I have this HUGE craving for steak, baked potato, and salad, I am doing another walk so I don't feel so guilty for eating tonight, although i will prolly only eat half and eat the other half for lunch tomorrow! I'm so glad I found this in me and decided with myself (yes I have voices in my head), that when I have a cheat day I will do 2 round of exercises! I think that'll make me decided if its worth it. Also, I have cut my calories back to 1500 and have done SOOO good sticking to that.

As far as TTC, we are officially trying again now. I have a REALLY good feeling about this month. But, I do know that Its ALL in God's control. :) How good it is to be a Christian, and to rely on Him at all times.

Thanks for all of your support,

Have a great week,

Leigh

copycat

I'm gonna try to do something to hold myself accountable to the weight loss.
Jenn over at Jen's journey tracks everything that she does. I'm gonna start putting mmy exercise on here to see if I will start back getting my workouts like I used to. I feel so much better when I behave. :)
SOOOO...
today i have

walked 3.3 miles in 60 minutes which burned 577 calories

biked 4 miles at 16 miles and hour 322 calories

Now to try to bring my eating in properly

Have a Great week
Leigh

my Dr. office visit

I went to the dr. today, and got all kinds of news.

First of all, we ALL agree the surgery was a success :) ! He was in SHOCK that we got PG the 1st month of trying, and so was I. With that being said. He told me to use protection until after my next cycle. Then he said we can be "active", but not to "actively try" until 3 months, which would be 2 more cycles. That if we got PG before the 3rd month, ok, but Not to really try until that month. So, it'll be all in the "fun" :)

God had/has a plan for me and that baby. I will never know what it is until the day I get to Heaven and see my Father and our baby. I never knew what this pain feels like and it is sooo undescribeable.

At the same time, the Dr. told me to continue on my weight loss goals and challenges. To continue on liveing life as normal.

I just wanted to update everyone. I am doing well considering. I have my moments, but who doesn't and I just let God do what he has planned for me. I truly believe had He not wanted us to have a baby, He wouldn't have provided SOO much for us this far.

Thanks for all your prayers and concerns,

Have a Great week,
Leigh

Back to "Normal"

Just wanted to post and let everyone know, I will be returning back to work tomorrow! YAY! I've learned I am NOT a stay at home mom, I don't know how you women do it!
I will be returning to my weight loss efforts as well, hence I can not get motivated sitting in the house all day. I do MUCH better when I work, so HOPEFULLY I will get the other 50 pounds off.
Also, we still in the TTC mode, no news yet on any positives, but maybe it'll be soon and I can post a very HAPPY post!
Thanks to all of you for your good words and prayers.
Have a GREAT week!
Leigh

surgery has been completed!

First of all, thanks to all of you for praying for me and my blood pressure to behave. Because it did! The surgery went off without a HITCh!! The RE dr. said that the dr. that did my tubal cut one side a lil shorter than he should have, so he's not sure if that side will close back up or not. So with that said, he is saying we only have a 50/50 chance of the reversal working.. BUt i told him, You know what, i had a 0% before, so... its gonna work for me!! He told me to keep that attitude, and I am! I feel really positive about this working for us! We have to wait about 2 months before we can try.. dang it!! ha ha! But, hubby and I both feel very positive about this, so that is a good thing! The Lord has moved many obstacles for this surgery to be completed, so I feel that it will work for us.

They weighed me that morning, and I'm pleased to say I have lost 70 pounds.. YAHOOOO!!! I was so excited!

I just thought I'd let you all know I am doing well... Yes i am at home, they don't keep you like they used to! very sore, but slowly walking that out!

Again, thanks for all your prayers.. Now lets just pray that it is successful!!!

Leigh

Final Countdown!!

Well folks, I have my surgery on Wednesday! YAY!! I have maintained my weight loss and have lost a total of aaalllmmmmooossst 70 pounds.. LOL! I feel fantastic and I truly believe this is meant to be! I go to Mobile on Monday (July 6) for my pre-op and then wed. (July 8) is surgery at 7:30 in the a.m.. I'm super excited and so is my hubby. I will be sure to update you all on what is going on as soon as i feel up to getting back on the computer. I believe I will be in the hospital until Sat. but may be as early as Friday I find out for sure on Monday. Please keep me and my family in your prayers and thanks for all the prayers.. prayer is EXTREMELY POWERFUL and I appreciate all the support that I have had.

much love,
Leigh

3 weeks left!

I only have 3 whole weks til I have my tubal reversal surgery! I am excited, scared, and whatever other emotions you can think of! My hubby is more excited than I am I think! and that is a WONDERFUL feeling!

On a different note, I got to do a couple of things I haven't done in a VERY LONG TIME.. matter of fact.. since I was a KID!! The first pic is of me on a slide, I do not remember getting on a slide since before 1992! This is a huge accompishment for me! The 2nd pic is of me on a rock climbing thing, I have never done this and it was SO MUCH FUN!! no telling what I'll do after I lose the other 60 that I want to lose!


Please everyone keep me in your prayers, and I will definately keep you all updated as to what is going on!

have a great week!
Leigh

5 months and 60 POUNDS!!

I started my journey on January 2nd of 2009. It has been VERY rewarding, and I have learned to like (and dislike) a few things. But, things that I can accept. Here is a picture of what I looked like last July at my nephews birthday party. Yes it was at a pool, and NO I would NOT put a swimsuit on!

During the months of March and April, I did not lose a pound. AT ALL! But, I re-evaluated and got myself and picked my behind back up, and started back on progress. I looked at this as a positive, because I didn't gain anything either. Just held on to the plateau, as much as that is aggrivating.Once, I got back to the exercising, the weight started falling off again. =) yes, I was excited to see that I could lose more.

We took my kids to the coast, a couple of weeks ago, so they could play in some sand. I put a bathing suit on, and thought my hubby was gonna HIT THE FLOOR! He was in shock to say the least. I love to take pictures, and there was this really nice guy that came up and said, Ya'll get together, I'll take you a family picture, soyou will have one with you all together. It was a very nice thing for him to do, otherwise, I'd never had one. And this is the pic...


I have 31 days until my surgery! YAY! I am getting so excited and nervous like you would NEVER know. I want to lose around 16 more pounds before this, and I think I can do it. Because it is attainable! I'll take more though, if I lose more! I'm just keeping my head up and reaching for the stars!!

Have a GREAT week!
Leigh

Playing Golf!?!?!?

My hubby is an avid golfer... Hence this picture...



He came up with a really WILD idea that I come with him and the boys that he works with! Well, I did, and had a goofy ole time with them. I had more fun chauffering, get lil sun, than I did actually playing golf.. How u suppose to hit that lil ole ball.. anywho.. lol!.. we still laugh when we think about me up there! The one thing he did though, was get the camera and take a few shots, well, I never noticed he had it, when I uploaded the pics of the day, I asked Who the girl was in the picture below!.. he says.. "HONEYBUN, that is YOU!!!" I started crying.. I can really tell that I have lost some weight, a LOT of it in fact, and it took a picture for me to SEE it! I had happy tears of course! i promised a pic, its not a good one, but one that you can tell i am 55 POUNDS DOWn!!!! YAY me!!



Ya'll have a GREAT WEEK!!

Leigh

Lil Ray of Sunshine

After a LONG depressing 2 MONTHS! I have Finally lost some weight. I have had to get my thoughts together and realize what I've been doing and not doing. I had been eating properly, but I realized that I was only exercising like 2 days a week.. Thats NOT going to cut it! So... I started exercising 5 days (or 6) a week and I have dropped another 6 pounds this week! Yes, Leigh, You DO have to exercise, to do this!!! I have my surgery in about 2 months and I really want to get at least 20 more pounds off, yes it is attainable, and YES i can do it!! I really got my motivation back after I lost a pound or 2. But, now I am determined!
Does anyone have any problems trying to find something that you CAN and WANT to eat, once you've changed your eating habits. Grocery shopping has because a pain in the BUTT for me! Nothing sounds good, can't have that, etc. I will post a new pic of me soon. (gotta buy some fitting clothes) ha ha!

Thanks to everyone for their prayers and support! I couldn't have done it with out you.

Leigh

trying to see the difference?!?!?!

I am trying to see if I can tell a difference in some pictures since I"ve lost this weight.. the Picture on top is BEFORE...

and the one on bottom is AFTER.. yes the pants are baggy but its a good start!

I'm starting to see the difference.. FINALLY! but my face is much THINNER!! yahoo!!!!!!!

Results from the Doctor Visit

First of all... THANKS to ALL of you for your PRAYERS!! They have been answered!! YAY!!

Ok.. first things first..

I have what I call the "white coat disease" LOL which makes my dang blood pressure shoot sky high at a dr visit and this one was no different than any other.. SOOO I have to get on blood pressure medicine.. yuck!

I have to start taking iron pills because I am anemic.. which I already knew.. just too stupid to take the things.. but as of yesterday I take 2 a day! =)

I have fibroids in my uterus... this is a good AND a bad thing! The bad thing is they are fibroids and are not helping my anemia at all... The good thing is my insurance covers the surgery for the removal of the fibroids (can't remember for the life of me what that is called) but while he is in there taking those out he will TIE MY TUBES BACK UP!!! YAY!!!

He said my weight loss is great and to keep it up, because it helps him while is doing the procedure (not as much fat to work around).

I go back this Friday to do a CBC and pelvic exam to find out exactly how many fibroids I have and all that good stuff..

Again, thanks for all the prayers, you all do not know how much it means to me that I have my prayers answered..

We are hoping for a June or July surgery, but like Dr. K says "we'll cross that bridge when we get there"

Sandra, thanks so much for referring him to me, you have TRULY helped me more than you know!

I have lost a total of 40 pounds and continuing to keep it going..

Thanks again to all of you!
Leigh

Baby Dr.

Hey everyone! I just wanted to let you all know I go to the BABY DR. on Friday! I'm excited, nervous, you know, all that good stuff..

Please Keep me and my family in your Prayers! and WISH US LUCK!!

I feel really good about this appointment and know that with me losing this 35 pounds it will really help me.

Again, please pray for my family

thanks,
Leigh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEASA

Today is my wonderful sister, Leasa's birthday. I want to give her the recognition that she sooo deserves.


As a child growing up, we were always told that one day we'd wish we got along because we would eventually need each other. Little did we know that would very well be true.


We now live about an hour and half from each other and text/talk to each other several times a day. If it weren't for her on some days I would be a wreck and I'm not even kidding. She knows when I am upset at a certain time and will somehow feel it and text me "u ok" or "u quiet, whats up". Ya know, the things only sisters can share.


She has been through a lot in her few years, and it has brought us even closer together than I would have ever thought possible. From, the marriage thing, to wanting and having children. I NEVER wanted kids until I got pregnant with my daughter and now I want a house full of them, whereas, she wanted a houseful and FINALLY got the angel she so deserves 3 years ago.


Leasa, I love you and want the world to know! I hope you have/had a wonderful birthday. It is your day to shine!
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On another note. I am stuck on the dang scale! UGH!! I have faithfully been running or walking for an hour everyday, which has been burning about 400 or more calories YIPPEE!! I can actually run for the entire hour! I was so excited the first time I did that. I believe I am stuck because we are all dealing with the cold season around here and it is so hard to eat when you dont' want to, I think I'm not eating enough so my body is holding on to it... when it is supposed to be LETTING go!! ha ha!!
well I hope everyone is doing well
will try to post again soon
Leigh