I have decided...

THAT... I'm going to go back to my workout routine, starting TODAY! I am going to start running again, to see if I can get out of this depressed funk that I am in. I think I'm depressed because I keep thinking about the baby that I lost. :( The dr. told me not to get my HR over 140, but that doesn't help me lose weight. I think the 140 is so when I do get PG again, that I can just exercise, without losing the weight. I'm not completely understanding but, I'm thinking i'll just go back to normal until i get a positive PG test again.
But, I'm am trying my hardest to think positive again. and GOD WILL help me get through this.

Terrible Day

I just need a place to vent.. soooo

I caught my 12 year old daughter lieing to me and stealing from me. I feel like I have failed as a mom. I know kids give us trials and tribulations, heck thats why we have them. I come from a "strong" Christian background, and NEVER would have thought I'd be dealing with this. I whip her and tell her its wrong, but is there a way to "show" her its wrong? I am deeply hurt, I have cried all day, and at the same time I want to know why I think that God would give me more children if I can't teach the ones I already have to do the right thing??? I mean SERIOUSLY???

Am I throwing this out of pro-portion? I'd never done this to my parents, and Lord knows never even thought about it.

On a different note, I am still doing great with my workouts every day, YAY! I walk an average of 4 miles a day. although, the scale is not budging an ounce :( it'll get off me when it gets good and ready, i reckon!

Thanks for listening to me vent, and if you have any suggestions, please send em my way.

Have a Great Week,
Leigh

2nd wind

OK.. I am a POOR POOR blogger I have figured out! But..
I have found my 2nd wind to get this diet thing and exercise back under control. Since the Sat. after Thanksgiving I have walked at least 4 miles every day and done a 4 mile bike ride as well! YAY!! I got up this morning and have already walked 4 miles and biked 4, BUT since I have this HUGE craving for steak, baked potato, and salad, I am doing another walk so I don't feel so guilty for eating tonight, although i will prolly only eat half and eat the other half for lunch tomorrow! I'm so glad I found this in me and decided with myself (yes I have voices in my head), that when I have a cheat day I will do 2 round of exercises! I think that'll make me decided if its worth it. Also, I have cut my calories back to 1500 and have done SOOO good sticking to that.

As far as TTC, we are officially trying again now. I have a REALLY good feeling about this month. But, I do know that Its ALL in God's control. :) How good it is to be a Christian, and to rely on Him at all times.

Thanks for all of your support,

Have a great week,

Leigh

still on the wagon

I forgot to post what I do for a workout on yesterday, so I'm logging it now beforeI go to work.

I did a 3.29 mile walk
then cooked supper and eat THEN
2.25 mile walk
4 mile bike ride

I will be logging in today's this after noon as I am only going to do a "halfer" since I will be pressing for time. But, I'm thinking half is better than none! :)
Have a Great day!
Leigh

a Little Behind..

since I had to get a new computer and for some reason didn't notice that I can't put my card from my camera in it.. I had to wait on a part to use the USB thingie that comes with the camera... nope I had to ORDER 1 from EBAY.. yes that my luck..
ANYHOW.. here are my 2 angels for what they were for Halloween..




TIFFANY as the Flapper.. and she LOVED IT!!





Cody as the Hulk and he INSISTS on doing it again next year!


As for me.. I been keeping up with my exercises on here so I will be sure to do them...

I had a very stressful day, so I walked not once but TWICE and may end up walking a 3rd time with the BIGGEST LOSER is on...

1st walk was for 3.33 miles

2nd walk was for 2.25 miles

also, a 4 mile bike ride

11 flights of stairs

I think I'm sticking to this pretty good!

Have a great day!
Leigh

oops

I did good.. logged 2 days in a row and then quit! thats NOT good! BUT, I got back on the bandwagon yesterday.


Here is what I did on SUNDAY 11/8
walked for 4.18 miles
biked for 3 miles
my heart rate monitor doesn't like me so I quit wearing it.

so far today
walked for 3.3 miles will do at least 1 more mile when DWTS comes on
will be for at least 3 miles also when DWTS is on
make 11 laps on the stairs

I am determined to get back into my routine, as it is sooo hard to do once you stop!

Also, we have been a very busy family doing all sorts of outings with the kids, I finally got the piece to my camera to get them on the computer so now I can spread the joy with y'all! me and my honey
the boys
Tiffany
and here is CODY the Cub Scout!

I LOVE the fall season, as the weather is usually perfect for anything and everything! I'm enjoying having all the extra weight off and spending lots of free time with the family!

Have a Great Week!
Leigh

2 days in a row...

and I feel FANTASTIC!! Today my eating habits returned back to "normal"! YAY!!

My workout today included an hour of walking 3.5 miles for 607 calories
and walked up and down stairs for 5 minutes which was 8 FLIGHTS of stairs!
I feel sooo accomplished. I will be riding the bike for 4 miles in a lil while when the BL comes on and who knows I may walk again since there is a TV in the exercise room :)

We are officially TTC again. Please keep me in your prayers and maybe a lil one will "stick" soon. I'm so excited that the time has come for us to try again. I have found that I appreciate the people I know so much more since that dramatic day.

Have a Great week!
Leigh