Nervous

I am feeling extremely antsy or nervous. I have those days, as I have less than a month to go to the dr. to find out about the tubal reversal we are praying that we can have. Sometimes I lay and cry at night because its "all my fault", but my hubby assures me that the "man upstairs" is in full control. I have to date lost around 35 pounds which is OUTSTANDING if I must say so myself.
Any positive words from any of you would help me greatly. and remember to add me to your prayers.
thanks
Leigh