La La Land

Thats just where I'm at these days! I'm soo wishing AF would show already. It's been almost 5 weeks since the MC, and no sign of her showing yet. I'm not sure how much longer I can wait before I take a test just to make sure I'm not PG! The good thing is, I know what my hCG levels were last and what day that was on. (But lets not get our hopes up here) especially since I've been not feeling very well the last couple of days.
Somebody needs to push me in gear, so I can get my big ole' behind back on the exercise wagon. I CAN NOT get motivated and its KILLING me! I've never been so disappointed in myself. EVER!!
Ok.. enough venting for now! Maybe I can go to sleep.. and not have a night full of dreams like I been doing for the last week or so! UGH!!
anyone know how long a "normal cycle" is after a MC? I could use some help on this!

Have a GREAT week!
Leigh

SCARE

I had a very stressful day on yesterday. Both kids brought home a "short form" and I also got a letter in the mail on my daughters attendance. Well.. this caused me to STRESS!! After I tore up my kids, YES i believe the belt was invented for another reason than the pants, I went to pee. well, when I wiped I had a lil blood there. can you say FREAK OUT!!! I paid attention to the time, and all that good stuff. I went to bed early, so I would not stress out anymore. Well, when I woke up today, again, the "spots" i'll call em were there only when I peed. SOO i called the dr. and had bloodwork drawn. my hCG's are in the normal range for the 7 weeks that i am! THANK goodness.. BUT i have to go back on monday to get more blood drawn.. UGH!! I hope this is not what this PG gonna do to me.. but at the same time, i "know" i am FINE!! =) just thought i'd pass a lil note to let ya'll know what is going on with me.. yes I need to

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